Lady Saydah Island Warrior

2010, there is another number instead of zero, another year that has added age and experience and intelligence and strength to all of us. Another battle won, carry your scars proudly because they are what makes you.

Just wanted to touch base and make sure that you all know just how much you are appreciated.  I have been quite busy myself this past year, went through some serious battle scars that left me quite tired, worn out, shaken and slightly disoriented but I am back and I hope that I can count on your continued support.

This story will come to an end because what I start I always finish contrary to other's beliefs. This past year made me realize a lot of things that I have never been able to credit myself to. Most people keep bypassing others never fully appreciating their existence and this realization made me see that I was being bypassed alot and that created some serious turmoil within me.

But to the Grace of a Higher Power I am able to pull everything back inside of me and look at it with fresh eyes, willing my mind and finding forgiveness within my heart. I carry pain and memories of last year but I also carry a confidence that I lacked for such a long time and most importantly I carry a message that I will always wear forever in my soul....I do matter.

This would be another story for another time because it snowballs into many other factors in my life but this past year has totally taught me to love myself no matter how much I search for others to love me the most important one is ME. 

I want to apologize to everyone for doubting myself because I am a firm believer of "practicing what I preach." I wandered off the beaten path and there I saw the demons of my past and my mind played tricks on me and in my blind quest for love I forgot one important thing....ME.

Lady Saydah is a character I built from the opposite mirror of myself, the stronger version of myself, the gutsy part of me, the one that makes a huge difference, the one that loves herself for who she is. 

This year dear Warriors, I have realized that she is not the opposite of me but rather the ME that I have come to find hiding deep within my traumatic life.

Thank you again for the support and I will keep writing and updating and finish this story to print by the summer time.

Kinisou chapur, Menlau Kolaimon, and all of the other thank yous....

Always,

Joy Doves